Due to the fact that I had to run around laredo, I took my meds late.
All day I was pissy, or bored. Annoyed. Took the pill about two to three hrs ago (5pm).
I have dry mouth, and I feel empty, or is just numb? My head hurts a tad but I feel incomplete.
George and I didn’t get to talk as much as I would have liked but I’m excited…
I can’t even smile when I think of him. Excited? I mean I know I am but Why can’t I feel it? Isn’t it too soon to feel the pill “working” and if it’s working why not allow me to feel the good stuff.
So yeah. Sorry, Took a breather.
Hmm, what’s new? I passed my drug test, have no criminal records lol and might start working. Shweet. Hate the location. Though once I get money, I get to help around the house, not that, that excites me but dad will shut the fuck up for once.
Still craving sushi. Sushi is like the holy grail of sex. Guess that would mean sushi is an orgasm?
I think a lot is changing, or a lot will change. I can’t wait. I’m tired and I want new. I’m ready for more.
It’s 9pm 6-28-2012
Random but I just remembered, Today, I say this little notepad thingy on my phone and I wanted to read a message I had there for a while and apparently there was a new entry made hrs before my appointment at the doctors. Except, I don’t remember writing it at all. The message read;
“I don’t feel like a friend or like you see me as your friend anymore.”
I think it’s a tad creepy.
Dated : 6-26-2012 3:34am
Thing is, my phone was charging in the living room til I woke up around 5amish remembering my phone has an alarm for 7am and Jenn was kind enough to sleep on the couch that night but she wouldn’t go through my phone. Even if she would, why leave a note esp like that? Oh, and I know I woke up around 5amish because once I had the cell I looked at the time and went back to sleep.
What does this mean? Supernatural? lol or am I going crazy and has Amber really surface with a mind of her very own? Scary.